Chapter 12

Chapter 12
APOV
I woke up early, to a furry ball scurrying over my body, I was about to scream out loud, when I noticed it was just Bella's dog Nessie. She was so cute, I couldn't wait to dress her up, ohhhh, I might even buy her some doggie polish. I looked around to see if anyone was up, everyone was still asleep.
I looked over to my right to see the most cutest thing. Awww, they look so cute. Bella was resting her head on, Edward's chest. He had his hands protectively around her. My plan, sort of worked last night, my whole goal was to make them realize how they feel about one another. We can all tell. I was so glad, I picked Edward's name out of the bag, I was hopping he picked dare, and when he did I knew exactly what his dare was. A lap dance. It was so perfect, I thought Bella was going to combust since her face was so red. Although it wasn't my intention, things were awkward between the two of them. Since that didn't work out so well, I was glad Bella suggested to stop playing, and watch a movie. Time for phase 2. I specifically chose a horror movie, so that Bella would be scared enough to go and cuddle up to Edward. After almost making all go deaf, she finally settled by Edward. They didn't speak towards one another, and I internally groaned. Bella had left to go get some popcorn, and Edward was looking a little down. Then as fate would have it Bella fell landing in Edward's lap, covering us with popcorn in the process. I could see the way they looked at each other, but I guess they were too oblivious towards their feelings. I was going to do anything to help them get together, I'm too sneaky for my own good, but you know what that's why my name is Alice.
Since I was the first up, and I decided to check my cell phone to see what time it was. It was 2 in the afternoon…
"Damn… we only have so much time for shopping." I huffed out loud.
I quietly woke up Jazzy, then Emmett, and Rosalie.
"What the hell Al, I was just getting to the part where, Megan Fox was about to go dow…."
Smack!
"Oh Rosie…my bad you're the only girl I dream about.." Emmett huffed rubbing the back of his head.
"Uh huh, sure honey. Whatever you say.." Rose glared sleepily.
"Ha.. Looks like someone isn't getting any this week." Jasper laughed.
"So what do we owe the pleasure of you my dear sister waking us up, at this ungodly hour?" Emmett asked.
"Em…it's 2 in the afternoon. Time to get up, and anyway were going shopping!
Both the boys groaned.
"Look you don't have to come. Although we could use the help carrying our bags." Rose grinned.
"Uh… no. If we have to go, it will be in the Video game store." Emmett grumbled.
"Typical Boys." Rose huffed.
"Come on…lets go, we only have so many hours till closing." I grumbled.
"I'll go wake Eddie, and Bells." Emmett mischievously grinned.
This wasn't going to be good…
EPOV
I was having the most amazing dream. Bella, and I were in a meadow. We both were laying beside each other. She looked like a goddess. We were staring at one another, and it looked like Bella was about to say something. The first word looked like she was about to say "I" . But when she opened her mouth, it wasn't her angelic voice I heard, It sounded a lot like Emmett's. Maybe I was having a nightmare. Please no…no, then she spoke again in the foreign voice "Wake UP!"
I quickly shot up accidentally rolling over her in the process. My body laid on top of hers. I looked down to see if she was awake, even though that was probably a lost cause since I fell on top of her. Her big brown doe eyes looked up at me, full of shock.
Crap…were back to being awkward….
BPOV
I was on cloud nine, my dreams were filled with a bronze haired god, with the most amazing green eyes, with flecks of gold. My dream was so real, It actually felt as if I was curled up to him, the warmth from his chest on mine. His steady breaths, tickling my skin. I was so glad this was a dream, I didn't want things to be awkward like they were earlier. I relished in the moment, until I heard Emmett's booming voice. My dream suddenly stopped, and I felt an thump against my chest. I opened my eyes, to see what knocked the breath out of me only to gaze into 2 bright green ones down at mine. I could hear everyone's laughter in the background. Was wondering why they were laughing at me, but mostly in particular I wanted to know why he was on top of me…
EPOV
"Oh shit!" I'm sorry Bells, Emmett scared me, and I didn't mean to you know…."
"It's okay Edward, I should have known." Bella smiled beautifully.
"Thanks.." I grinned.
"Edward.." She said, my name rolled beautifully off her tongue.
"Yeah?" I asked.
"Uh do you mind getting off me now, you're cutting off my air supply." Bella huffed breathless.
"Oh, I'm sorry… really I am." I stuttered rolling off of her. I guess I was too infatuated with her beauty that I didn't realize I was still on her,
I gave her my hand, and helped her off the floor. We both dusted ourselves, turning around to be met by 2 shit grinning faces.
"Thanks Em, because of you I fell on top Bella." I grimaced stretching out my bones from laying on the floor.
"Like you didn't enjoy it." Emmett grinned.
Bella instantly turned red, and followed the girls to the bathroom. Damn she won't even look at me now.
"Thanks a lot Emmett!" I gave him a death glare.
"Oh Eddiekins, don't get your panties in a bunch we all know you like her." Emmett laughed.
"I do not, and don't call me Eddiekins." I grimaced.
"Come on man, we all know you do, ever since we were kids, only you and Bella are too oblivious to see what's right in front of you." Jasper reasoned
"So maybe I like her." I huffed quietly.
"What was that Ed?" Jasper grinned using his hand to cup his ear.
"I like her…okay" I said once more.
"No…that's it you love her." Emmett grinned.
"No I don't… I don…t" I stuttered.
"Say it." Emmett pushed.
"No." I replied.
"Say it" Jasper egged. I was becoming Highly agitated. I did love her but I was afraid to admit it.
"Come on!" they both said simultaneously.
"I Love her okay!" I screamed a little too loudly.
"Love who?" Alice said, walking back into the room with the other girls. Bella was looking expectedly at me. What do I do? I was deciding whether or not I should tell her I feel, but at the same time she might not feel the same way. I had so many conflicting emotions, to protect myself I just blurted out the first thing that came to my mind.
"Tanya!" All their mouths dropped including Bella's into perfect little o's.
I didn't realize what I said till Alice spoke up.
"You actually love her?" Alice almost screamed at me.
"Uh, yeah." I managed to say I couldn't go back on what I said, I was in deep thought, so I blocked out all the profanities Alice was screaming . I deeply regretted it what I just said. Bella looked as if I had killed her puppy. Any chance I now had with Bella, just went down the drain. I'm such a dumbass….
BPOV
Meanwhile a couple minutes earlier in the bathroom…..
I looked into the mirror, my face was flushed from the night before. I quickly brushed my teeth, and thought about the day's recent events. First a lap dance, then I fall onto his lap, then I wake up to his gorgeous face inches from mine. He smelled so good, I just wanted to close in the distance and press my lips against his, just to breathe in his scent. I wanted him so bad, I wanted nothing more than just to take him on the floor and ravage him. Though that wouldn't be a pretty sight, to see. I couldn't help the grin that spread across my face, when I thought about dancing with him. His warm hands on my waist, and my arms around his neck. My face against his chest where I could hear his steady heartbeats. I wanted to remember that moment forever. I started to brush my hair with my brush, when Rose, and Alice stepped in.
"Aw..lookie Rose our little Bella looks like she's in love." Alice faked wiping a tear from her eyes.
"Shut up Al! I'm not in love." I tried to say but I couldn't hide my grin.
"Details, details, details!" Alice squealed.
"I might be in love with your brother." I mumbled.
"Who Jazz?Em?" Rose mocked hurt.
"You know who!" I said back.
"Do we now?" Alice smiled…she was going to make me say it. I got something for her.
"Yeah I want Jasper so bad.!" I mocked back. Alice's mouth dropped open, and Rose tried to stifle her laughter.
"..funny!" Alice said punching me in the arm.
"Ouch Alice, I really like to keep use of my arm, if you don't mind." I winced rubbing my arm.
"Sorry, but still just say it." Alice sighed.
"Fine…. I might be in love with Edward!" I closed my eyes, my face was probably a bright shade of crimson right now.
Both Rose, and Alice squeezed me into a hug.
"I always knew it." Alice squealed.
"Knew what?" I asked dumbfounded.
"We all knew you like him, well all except Edward, who's too blind." Rose grumbled.
"Really?" I asked.
"Yep, I think he feels the same way. Have you noticed the way he looks at you?" Alice questioned.
"I don't know. I don't think he sees me in that way. There probably will never be anything between. Even if there was something between us. What about Tanya? He's still dating her." I replied.
"Don't make me laugh Bells! He doesn't care for Tanya, all he's looking for is a good lay." Alice grinned.
"But what if I'm that to him… He might just want to get in my pants…" I tried to continued until Alice stopped me.
"Don't let me ever hear those words come from your mouth again. He would never do that to you, and if he did I will castrate him personally, and feed it to your dog." Rose added.
I couldn't help but smile…. "Remind me never to get on your bad side Rose…. So you really think I'll ever have a chance?"
"Yep, I wouldn't doubt he felt the same way." Alice reassured me.
"So what's today's agenda?" I asked.
"Shopping!" Rose, and Alice said enthusiastically.
"No!" I groaned.
"Yep..now lets go.
So maybe I did have a chance, if Edward didn't really feel for Tanya we could take things slow. The girls and I walked back downstairs to head into the living room, and overheard Edward having a conversation with Emmett, and Jasper.
"Say it." Emmett was pushing.
"No." Edward replied.
"Say it" Jasper egged. I
Edward look agitated.
"Come on!" they both said simultaneously.
"I Love her okay!" Edward screamed loudly.
"Love who?" Alice asked bouncing beside me.
Edward looked deep in thought till he blurted out the one name, that I didn't wan to hear.
"Tanya." He replied.
My mouth dropped, as did the others. Even Edward himself looked shocked as to what he had just said. My heart broke into millions of pieces. He loved her, not me. I could feel the tears glaze over in my eyes, but I will myself not to cry. I blocked everything out, I headed back stairs to get dressed. I didn't hear Rosalie calling my name, or even Alice shouting profanities at Edward. I crawled onto my bed, closed my eyes and wished my bed swallow me whole. I was being foolish.
I wanted him so bad, but he didn't want me….. he never did…
APOV
All I saw was red. My asshole of a brother was in love with Tanya. He knew I couldn't stand her, and he goes up and does this. I didn't even notice Bella leaving the room. She was probably crushed, after both me and Rose reassured her that he didn't have any feelings for Tanya. This was it, I couldn't take it anymore, I started screaming at him for being so stupid. He looked like he was ignoring me, which only made me angrier. By time I was finished. I was so made I wanted to go help Rose castrate him, grind it up in a food processor, and then feed it to Bella's dog and say "Bon Appetite."
RPOV
My douche of a brother hurt, one of my best friends. I know how it feels, to love someone and hope they love you back. I was glad I had Emmett, and Alice had Jasper. As for Edward I suggest he run because if I get next to anything sharp sometime, soon he can say goodbye to "Little Edward."
EPOV
What did I just do?
I managed to ruin it all in a matter of seconds. I didn't love Tanya, I loved Bella with all my heart. But me being, stupid, just blurted out the one name. I could have said any name, but no I chose the one my family despises. After Alice was done hollering at me, Emmett told me, that we were going to meet the girls at the mall. I noticed Bella wasn't in the room, and was about to go check up on her when, Jasper stopped me. Just let the girls cool off. I sighed and went towards my Volvo.
Since the three of us shared a apartment, I trailed behind them for the 20 min. ride.
I didn't even bother trying to get my key out of my pocket, I let Emmett open the door, and slugged my way towards the couch.
"I fucked up..guys" I grumbled.
"Yeah you did, I never seen that little pixie so mad before." Emmett agreed.
"Yeah…why did you blurt out Tanya's name anyway." Jasper asked.
"I don't know.. I guess I sort of panicked." I huffed.
"Well you and all the panicking, may have made you lose all your chances you had with Bella." Jasper said.
"So what do I do now?" I asked.
"First you have to set things right, first get rid of Tanya, she's a bitch… Second tell Bella about your feelings, and even if she doesn't feel the same way, although I doubt it. Fight for her, if you truly do love her, as I can tell. Don't let anyone or anything get in your way." Emmett beamed.
Wow, that was a lot to take in, and for once Emmett actually made sense.
BPOV
I felt the soothing hands of my best friends on my back, as I sobbed into my pillow.
"Shh…its okay Bells." Rose cooed.
"Yeah my brother was being an ass." Alice said.
"I told you he probably didn't feel the same way." I said, my voice raspy.
"I thought he did… I'm so sorry honey.." Alice said tears, brimming in her eyes.
"No. it's not your fault I was being foolish to think he could ever like me. I can't compare to Tanya." I huffed.
"Now you know that's a lie, Nessie looks better than Tanya. Now let's stop all that crying that's Edward's loss. We'll be back in 20 minutes and we'll go shopping." Alice said.
"Yeah, and if Edward doesn't want you there are plenty of guys that will." Rose reassured.
"Really?" I asked.
"Duh Bella, now go take a shower and we'll be back.
"Thanks you guys…" I grinned.
"No problem Bells that what sisters are for." Rose smiled before following Alice out.
I laid back on my bed, and stared at the ceiling. They were right. It was okay if he didn't want me. Like they said, there are plenty of guys, I could go out with. Of course it wasn't the guy I wanted, but I would settle. There is no reason, to want someone that doesn't want you back. He sees me as a friend, and we will stay friends. I don't want to ruin that for anything in the world. I'm tired of crying. If he doesn't want me it's his loss, he loves Tanya I'll be happy for him. That's all I want for him….She can be with the person she loves….
I just wish I could be with the one I love.