Chapter 5

Chapter 5
EPOV
It had only been 2 days since Bella left, but it felt like weeks. Everyone was sort of getting back to normal, because they all felt that this wasn't the end but the beginning .There would be phone calls, summers vacation and holidays. Bella would come back to visit us and all would be well. Bella wouldn't want us to mope around, although she is probably moping away wherever she is.
I was even surprised to see Alice perk up a little bit. She still wasn't acting like her usual self, but it still was nice to see her smile.
She and Alice went out shopping. I guess to help themselves feel better,while Emmett and Jasper were downstairs playing on the Xbox. Dad was at work, while Mom was in her design room sketching.
However, I felt like apart of me was was one of my closest friends and I told her everything,even my secrets next to Alice. I wasn't even that close with Rosalie and she was my own twin sister. I felt so much regret. I should have told her earlier. Being me I was too stubborn and late to realize the error of my ways.
Feeling down, I decided to try and call her on her cell phone.
Yeah … that's smart, I should have thought about that earlier.
That will work. I'll call her and explain everything. It may not be the way I pictured it, but at least it was something.
Taking out my cell, I dialed Bella's number.
"Hello" a gruff voice answered, sounding a little exasperateed.
Hmmm… well that was odd.
"Hello" he spoke again sounding agitated.
"Um… is Bella there?" I asked my voice sounding shaky.
"No Bella's not" he said.
"Uh okay….can you tell her I called? "I asked quietly…
"Maybe. maybe not…." he said..
"Who's this?" I asked trying to figure out who this guy was, and why he was anwsering Bella's phone. I could feel my skin start to boil with rage. Who did he think he was?
"Jacob" the voice answered, sounding cocky. " and You?"
"Edward" I replied. " Why won't you tell her I called?" I asked curiously.
"Because I don't feel like it.." and with that he hung up the phone.
I sat there shocked, my mouth agape with my phone pressed to my ear.
She had met a boy. A boy? Even here she only hung around Emmett,Jasper and I.
We were all very protective over her, as the same with Rose and Alice. Maybe she was glad to get away from us. Just maybe.
I didn't know if I was just being paranoid or what, but it felt like the hole in my heart had gotten even bigger.
Flopping on my bed, I covered my head with my pillow. Slowly closing my eyes, I let the darkness consume me.
BPOV
Meanwhile 2 hours earlier...
We were on our third stop, visiting one of Phil's teammates. I was seriously hoping they would hurry up and end their conversation, because I was getting bored listening to their useless conversation.
I thought that since we had left early we would be arriving in Phoenix earlier, not sitting here talking to some guy nicknamed "Twitch", because he had this weird disorder that made him twitch every couple of minutes. I know...Phil had some strange friends.
His wife was off somewhere talking about to my mother, while his teenage son whose name I think was Jacob, trying his hardest to ask me on a date, which I politely refused. He was really assertive, and too stubborn to take a hint. I mean he was good looking,with his russet colored skin, shoulder length jet black hair, and dark brown eyes, but he just wasn't my type. It seemed like lately nothing could replace those piercing green eyes and bronze mop of hair.
After what felt like hours of useless conversation, we were back on the road traveling somewhere 10 miles of a small town called Burnham.
I was tired. We had been on the roads for only two days now, but it felt like forever.
Phil had drove ahead deciding to speed up to meet the movers since we had wasted so much time earlier. I was relaxing my head against the window trying to get some sleep, when I heard a large pop.
My mother grimly cursed under her breath, as she drove to the side of the road to inspect what had cause the damage. Unbuckling her seat belt, she got out of the car and headed towards the back tires.
"Fuck!" she said agitated. She then proceed to pull out what looked like a rusted nail.
"Perfect" I mumbled under my breath.
This was all we need right now. This was just going to make this horrid trip last even longer.
I watched as she grudgingly got the spare out of the trunk and began taking the bolts off the tire. Getting out of the car,I sat down on the ground beside her.
Slowly, I drifted off into my thoughts and began wondering if they had received my note. It was brief, but I had meant every word of it. Why hadn't they called? Didn't they miss me? Had they forgotten about me already? I was being stupid and paranoid; all of this riding for countless hours on end was beginning to make me lose my mind.
Maybe I should just call them myself now to save myself the trouble .Maybe they'll even answer. I hadn't had reception since we were riding in the car and that maybe since we stopped, I would have a signal.
I reached into my pocket of my jacket to grab my phone,when I noticed that I didn't feel the familiar metal frame. Glancing into my pocket, I saw that it wasn't my bag, I looked through all of the compartments and still no off the ground I headed towards the car and began looking around. Still my phone was nowhere to be found and I knew it wasn't with Phil or in the moving truck.
Where was my phone? I thought to myself. The last time I had seen it was with that strange guy named "Twitch"and his family. Oh god!
"Crap!" I exclaimed. I must have left it at their house, I couldn't just go tell my mom to turnaround to get it. That was over 50 miles back.
Ugh! Maybe that's why I hadn't heard from any of them if they did call me. I had left my freaking phone.
"Life was just so fucking perfect!" I mumbled sarcastically under my breath so my mother wouldn't hear.
We had at the most 4 more days of driving,so it was going to be awhile before I could even call them. My mom didn't even have own only reason I even had one was to talk to my friends. They probably thought I'd forgotten about them phone call or anything. I probably didn't even have friends right now.
"Why me?." I said,unaware that I had said it aloud.
"Why what?" my mother said, as she glared at me. Still waiting for an answer she secured the last remaining bolt on the tire before getting up
"Nothing." I said as I climbed into the backseat, stretching back across the seat.
I didn't even care about securing my seat belt, or the police for that matter as my mother drove off. I wanted to relax,but trying to rest with your head pressed against a window is really difficult.
I was just about to doze off when my mother began talking to me.
"You know Bella... I know you're not happy, but this something I need to do. I want you to stop being selfish and be happy for me." she said.
"I never said that I wasn't happy for you, but you could have told me earlier and given me the the chance to say goodbye to my friends. Is that too much to ask for?" I screeched.
"Bella!" My mom exhaled.
"You have to get over it. We are moving, you'll make new friends and get over it. Besides, I never really liked those friends of yours anyway. Especially that Edward fellow I never liked the way he looked at you." My mother replied glancing at me throw her rear view mirror.
I was shocked. How could she say such a rude and hateful thing like that to me.
"They're my friends and you just abruptly took everything away from me." I said, trying to hide my now red and irritated eyes.
"Bella!" my mother said defeated.
"Regardless of what you say, nothing is going to change. It's about time you made new friends." she huffed.
That woman didn't sound like my mother. The kind,free spirited woman that was once there was now cold;distant.
"What happened to my mother?" I whispered more to myself but she still heard.
"What?" she said.
"What happened to my mother?" I said again, my voice a little louder.
"She's right here." my mother said.
" No she's since dad died you've changed. It's like you only care about yourself." I responded.
"You're being selfish." my mom exclaimed. "Why can't you be happy for me?" she asked.'
" I'm selfish? You're never home anymore. I spent most of my time with those said friends while I gave you and Phil alone time to do as you please and I'm selfish?" I couldn't believe she could say that. I would do anything for her and she knew that.
"It's Phil isn't it? You're just jealous. Your just jealous that Edward didn't look at you the way Phil looks at me. Yeah I see how you look at him. that's another reason I'm glad we're leaving." she answered.
"I'm jealous?" I replied sarcastically.
"I provide for you and do all I can. Your clothes,shoes,and cell phone. That's why I have Phil." she responded and I did a double take. I seriously hoped she wasn't implying what I thought she was. From the look upon her face, my worst fears were coming true.
"Oh my god!" I exclaimed.
"You're only with Phil for the money." I stated.
"Maybe I am, maybe I'm not." she replied evenly while she continued driving.
Who was this woman? and what did she do with my mother? Phil was actually an nice guy. What could he have seen in my mother?
"How could you do that to him?" My tone loud. I couldn't help it,how could she treat someone as nice as him so rudely?
" Well Charlie's gone and you're getting older.I'm still young( she's 32), I have needs you provides for me and maybe with this deal some doors can be opened for me." She said like it wasn't the most crudest thing in the world.
"No I don't know Renee." I responded. She didn't deserve the satisfaction of being called mom.
"Fine be that way, but not one word to Phil." she said sternly glaring down at me.
"Like he would believe me anyway. He must have been blind to fall in love with you." I mumbled under my breath so she couldn't hear.
"Well?" she said.
"Whatever. Just leave me alone please." I answered. I couldn't even look her in the didn't deserve it. As she continued on driving, I laid my head back back and closed my eyes.
What did I do to deserve this? I thought to myself.
I mean I'd always been a good girl.I didn't do anything there was one time when I punched Mike in the face which ended up with me being punished and he a broken nose,but that wasn't my fault; he had tried to kiss me. Ew. The memory of it made me shudder.
That was when I was 10 and the only other time was when Alice, Edward and I snuck into that one R-rated movie. I mean it was just gore and one measly sex scene. We had covered our eyes, but that didn't stop our parents from barging into the movie theater with the manager to come and yank our tails out. Other than that, I hadn't did anything remotely close to be put in this situation.
Yet here I lay, traveling with my flighty bitch of a mother,a soon to be clueless stepfather, left cell phone less and sitting in this ratty old thing that doesn't even have an working air conditioner.
Yep. Life couldn't get any better than this.
EPOV
12 days later…
It has now been a total of 14 days. Exactly 2 weeks since she left and still no phone call. Surely she would have been in Phoenix by now. School had been a blur and now with Bella gone, Lauren and Jessica the high school beauties (sluts) have decided to adhere themselves to my side offering sexual offers. I'm surprised they even let me go to the bathroom by myself, the way they followed me. I felt empty, and had made life fun and now it just sucks.
We were all sad and hurt. How could she so abruptly and all there left was a sorry. A simple sorry. No phone call or anything. We all tried but now we were all thinking the same thing. She had forgotten about us.
Bella wouldn't forget she?
Maybe she was just tired, or made some new friends,or even had homework to do.
Yep that was probably it.
I felt anger surprisingly. We never went this long without talking to each other.
Bella was one of our closest friends, and her not even responding to our calls was a sign. She had forgotten about us. Well if she forgot about us,we- well specifically me was going to forget her. Life goes on. I not going to sit here all day and mope over her. She obviously didn't care about me like I thought she did. Maybe I was just being irrational there had to be a reason why she didn't call right?
At that moment I honestly didn't care. I just felt so empty. The ache in my heart was widening the void that lay there. I decided I would go out and find someone to fill that void. I didn't care about love, emotions, and all that other crap people talk about. Because love sucks.
I had some pent up frustrations that I had to relieve, and grabbing my phone I needed to do.
"Hello"she answered a little breathless.
"Hey, I decided to take you up on that offer."
I smiled and figured that this day wasn't going to be so bad after all.

APOV
2 months later….
Rose and I were out shopping again. Christmas was quickly approaching and we were buying everyone presents. It had become an major addiction of mine more than usual.I had to do something to take my mind off of my best friend. Why hadn't she called, I'll never know.
I mean we've been friends since kindergarten and I know she wouldn't mysteriously go all m.i.a on us. I knew I should probably be angry at her but I just couldn't. I knew she wouldn't do anything to hurt us, but I couldn't stop that ache in my heart.
Everyone was angry at Bella at the fact that she hadn't called or written any letters. I couldn't bring myself to do the same.
Jasper, Emmett, and I were the only ones who hadn't given up hope on her. Edward was out again with what's her face. Jessica Stanley the std with legs .
I knew he was hurt the way things ended, but he hit an all time low when he started dating the high-school sluts. It was like he trying to replace Bella with these bimbos. He was on girl 17 this month, and we had all learned by now to just let him be.
Then there was Rose. Just a month after Bella left, Rosalie was attacked by the High school player Royce King in an alley. Emmett had got there just in time to save her, but not before breaking his nose and nearly shattering 3 of his ribs. Luckily the police arrived before Emmett could do anymore damage. She was so emotionally broken after that. She blamed Bella for leaving her alone and bringing the so called "bad luck" upon her. Bella was the shoulder she cried on. She saw the real Rose who wasn't just wasn't a pretty face, but the joyful spirit that was her. That's why Rosalie opened up to her so quickly. Bella was very perceptive. She was getting better,but she became very protective of our family. She didn't want anyone to hurt us like Royce almost did to her. She felt like Bella has left us purposely. She was spending more time around Emmett,and even I noticed they started pairing off to go do things together. Movies,eating out,and taking her to various destinations. Mom and Dad thought Emmett was just doing this to comfort her,but I knew better.
Because even as Edward tells me so, never underestimate the mind of an all knowing Alice.
JPOV
I was becoming more agitated with everyday. The mood around the house was killing me. Everyone was testy;constantly on edge.
Edward's constantly moody, depending on which girl he's with.
Emmett is just Emmett; the same goofball he's always been.
Rosalie, ever since the attack has become stubborn and protective lately. Honestly she was acting like a bitch ,but no one wanted to face her wrath when she was pissed.
Then there was Alice. She was still acting like herself, but I could see the conflicting emotions in her eyes. She missed her best friend, hell… we all missed Bells,but she wasn't angry like everyone else. She couldn't be mad at Bella. She always said there was a reason for everything and situation was just a test. So like Emmett and Alice, I couldn't bring myself to be angry at her. I had missed Alice's smile. She smile sometimes ,but it wasn't the dimpled smile I'd grown accustomed to. She was sad and I had vowed do anything to make her smile again.
RPOV
Uggh… I was so angry. When she left, everything went downhill. Everyone was still gloomy, and to ease myself from the tension I had decided to go out. Bad idea. All i wanted to do was just to clear my head. But no, he just had to be the one guy I refused to date was standing in the alley as I passed by when he began to approach me. I didn't even get the chance to run away before he grabbed me. Luckily, Emmett was nearby getting off of work when he heard me scream and came to my rescue. I was so emotionally broken broken after that and the one person I needed at that moment was a thousand miles away from here. I needed her and she wasn't here. I cried for days,wishing she was here to tell me it was going to be alright. I hated her. I blamed her for doing this to me.
I knew it wasn't even her fault, but someone had to take the blame. I started spending time with Emmett who was always there to comfort when I had my breakdowns. He would take me places and make me feel free. Like it was just the two of us in the world. Where ther was no hurt, no pain. I'd became protective over my family. I didn't want anyone to hurt us ever again. Even my jackass of a twin brother Edward,who just dated girls for the kicks and then broke their hearts. Again, this had all started when she left.I knew it deep down that this wasn't her fault. I knew it wasn't. I just didn't want to admit to it.
EMPOV
was everyone so had been 2 months since she left and it seemed like every one had a stick up their ass. I couldn't be mad at her, I love that squirt and knew there had to be a reason why she hadn't called or written. Only Jasper,Alice and I didn't hold any remorse towards her.
Edward...was being a jerk and couldn't keep his "thing" in his pants, or preferably "Little Eddie" in his pants as the girls poor brother was a lost cause. He was going through girls quicker than he changed his own underwear. (eww.. I know right)
Then there's Rose. She's been through so much lately and blames Bella for everything that's happened to her. She knows it's not her fault. We starting hanging out and I had to admit that I enjoyed spending this time with her. She made me feel things. Strange things, but something none the less.
But enough with all of the sappy crap. I decided I was going to lighten up the mood. Everyone was downstairs watching television. How about I grab my water gun and….
"Emmett!" Everyone screeched as they looked down at their now soaked clothing!
Yep. The mood was definitely lightened.
BPOV
Its been two months and I was living in complete hell. We were only here two weeks before in which first, Renee and Phil got married, only to have a big fight less than a week later because Renee had maxed out his credit card.(No surprise there.) We lived in a gorgeous penthouse, but of course Renee had to make a comment claiming that it was too small. She was unbelievable.
The woman that is my mother was horrible. She wouldn't even buy me a replacement cell phone or get an house phone. She wanted to alienate me from everything and it was working. It seemed like Phil only cared about my well being. He actually made sure I had food, clean clothes,and helped me with my homework while Renee was off getting a tan, or getting her hair dyed, spending money like it was nothing.
I looked to him as an second was probably rolling around in his grave the was Renee's been treating me. At least there was someone looking out for me. I even started calling him Papa Phil.
School sucked. I had only one friend and her name was Angela. Everyone here looked at me like an outcast because I was pale,and at least by living in Arizona I would have accustomed a tan by now, but to no luck. Angela and Phil were the only people who made living in this hell bearable.
I thought about them everyday since I've been here. I even tried calling them from a payphone and never received an answer. They obviously had better things to do. Alice, my best friend. I'd missed her bright hazel eyes, her ear piercing squeal and bouncy spirit. I knew I had Angela but no one could ever replace Alice.
Rosalie. I was always there when she needed me and it hurt me knowing that she could possibly be in a crisis and I was not there to console her. I was one crappy friend.
Jasper- well we always had these weird interesting conversations. He was very articulate and could elaborate on any topic you gave him.
The people here, usually every sentence either ended with a "like" or "dude". Or the conversation end up saying "Lets go get a tan!" (despite the fact we're in Phoenix with constant sun I might add.) or"Lets hit a mall!" It was very sickening.
Emmett was my big teddy bear,who gave me bone crushing hugs and would laugh with me and not at me when I often fell.
I missed Esme and Carlisle, my second set of parents. Esme who love me as her own, in which I missed her warm hugs. With Renee,I was lucky if I even got a look from her. Carlisle,who often attended to my many injuries, cared for me many times and often answered my questions that no one else would answer. Luckily, I had Phil here.
Then there was Edward. I'd missed him the most. His teenage voice that often sounded liked silk. His light muscled frame, whose arms often caught me.
I've tripped over a hundred times, which usually always ended up with me sprawled across the floor. I never told him, but I had the biggest crush on him since I was 8. I knew he probably didn't feel the same way,but it hurt even more at the thought that he didn't. I tried sending letters, but it always ended up being return to sender. Honestly, I thought they didn't want to talk to me. I didn't blame them. I wouldn't talk to me either. I hadn't even given them a proper goodbye, I wrote a freaking note on a scrap of paper. What an awesome farewell that was. I didn't even know if they had received it or not.
All I wanted was someone to get away. I felt like I was tapped, when all I wanted was to be free. Even from Phil though I love him to death. Free from the bitch that is my mother. I wanted friends who liked me for me and not because of who my stepfather is. I wanted to find myself; who I am and was to become. Since I'm stuck here to graduation, might as well try and see if I can have the time of my life.
Hopefully life was going to get better, but as they say you never know until you grow up. I guess I was going to find that out for myself in five more years. Five extremely long years. Oh well... I might as well enjoy the ride.