Chapter 17

Chapter 17
BPOV
I'm floating, in the midst of darkness. It seems peaceful. Suddenly, a flash a white, I see the warm face of my dad Charlie. His bright smile, making me feel whimsical. I remember the flashbacks of me and him on the swing beneath the tree. I would lean against him, and he would call me his Sweet Pea, and the Forks' breeze would spread the faint scent of vegetation. It was one of my most favorite memories if him. I wanted to cherish that memory forever., I then see him in the distance, as he walks towards some unknown horizon, and disappears. Complete darkness again. Next I see is my papa Phil. The one man, that ever hold a part of my heart than Charlie. The two men who actually loved me. He too walks to the unknown horizon, and it fades to complete darkness. Whoosh.. A flash of red and I see Renee's sneering face looking back at me.
"You little bitch! You've were never wanted." She sneers, and I cower back. My feet are planted in spot, and I desperately want to run, but I have no where to run.
"Where are you trying to go you little slut. No running away from me! You should have being the girl I wanted, no you had to stay they way you were. Stupid shit of a girl." Renee smiles.
Suddenly my feet have movement, and I start to run. I hear faint footprints behind my back, and see no other than Tanya Denali, running behind me, with a face so full of hatred that if looks could kill. I would be 10 feet under right now.
"What do you want?" I cried.
"You know what I want, you little sadistic bitch." Tanya grimaced.
"I have not the slightest clue what you are talking about? I huffed, my feet suddenly stopped moving sending me spiraling onto the ground. I gaze up to see Tanya hold a very large sharp knife inches away from my neck.
"Yes you do, and there's a price to pay." She screamed, before slitting my throat…
"Noooooooooooooooo!" I screamed. I shot up in my bed. I looked over to the clock to see it read 4:30 a.m. There was no way, I would be able to go to sleep. My hair was damp against my face, and I couldn't help the tears that fell from my eyes. Even my leg ached. I laid there for hours until I decided to get dress. It was about 10:30, and we were leaving in about an hour, so I went into the bathroom in the guest room to freshen up.
When I looked into the mirror, my appearance didn't  seem to surprise me. My hair was a jumbled bird's nest upon my head. I had on some boy shorts, and a camisole. I really hoped Alice, Rose, or even Esme undressed me; that would be so embarrassing if it was one of the guys or specifically Edward. My face looked like the living dead. I was paler than I usually was,and let me tell you I was abnormally pale. My face looked sunken in. I had dark rings around my eyes, and very large bags under them. I looked horrible. Sighing, I brushed my teeth, and went to grab some clothes. Again thanks to Alice, I grabbed, a pair sweat pants to easily slide on over my boot. I threw on a tank top , and a midnight blue sweatshirt on, because it was chilly. I grabbed one of my boots, I recently acquired on our latest shopping spree, and put it on. My hair was no use, since it was still in the same French braid from last night. Giving myself, was last look in the mirror. I hobbled slowly down the stairs where the others were eating breakfast. Everyone, had their backs turned, so when I said hello, they all turned around to greet me, but I didn't get the reaction I expected. As soon as I spoke Alice screamed.
"Ahh!" Scaring everyone around her, including me, as I held my hand to my chest to stop the frantic beating of my heart.
"Well hello to you too Alice." I grumbled before going over to the counter where there were freshly baked muffins, and orange juice. When Esme gazed at me, even she gasped.
"I really wish everyone would stop doing that." I huffed.
"Well it's not our fault you look like the Crypt Keeper." Emmett said earning a smack on the back of the head from Rose.
"What the Hell Rose!" He grumbled rubbing the back of his head.
"Thanks, Em you really know how to make a girl feel great in the morning." I sneered, laying on the sofa near Jasper.
"Well someone got off the wrong side of the bed this morning." Alice said.
"Yeah well I didn't get any sleep last night." I yawned resting my head in Jasper's lap.
"Yeah we can tell, even I have to admit you look like the crypt keeper." Jasper laughed.
"Thanks Jazz." I said sarcastically, punching him in the shoulder."
"Love you too Bells." He grinned.
"Where's Carlisle?" I asked.
"He's on call, but he told me to tell you guys, he misses you all, and don't fray , from visiting us again. You know us and our old age." Esme grinned.
"Yeah you guys, and your old age." I huffed sarcastically. Esme, and Carlisle didn't look a day over 38. Carlisle looked like a god. Esme was pretty much flawless.
"Yeah cause with the way you're looking like right now you could pass for 50." Edward laughed. I just glared at him, I was still angry, from last night, and he was just digging himself a bigger hole. I huffed, and stormed off to Alice, who was in the kitchen reading a fashion magazine.
"So Al when are we leaving?" I asked.
"Actually we should be leaving in about 5, I was just telling Mom, about the new fall collection." She smiled.
"Okay I'll go get my bag." I said, but was stopped when I crashed into Emmett's massive form, stepping on his foot in the process.
" Damn, Bells. You're already a cripple, you're trying to make the whole world handicapped too." He groaned rubbing his foot.
"Yes Em, that's my goal in life. To make everyone handicapped, walking around on crutches, and boots!" I mumbled sarcastically.
"Whatever Bells, strange one you are." he mumbled grabbing the girl's bags.
Realizing I left my bags upstairs, I slowly stepped up the stairs, and retrieved my things. I was just about to go down the last 3 steps, when I of course tripped, and got reacquainted with the floor. I heard a sickening crunch, and felt a painful sensation spread throughout my face. I couldn't help the scream that erupted from my mouth, as I saw the pools of blood, flood my face. Everyone stormed in, to see me lying on the floor .I couldn't help the tears that fell from my eyes as I felt the ache spread through my leg, but that couldn't compare to my face. I was 3 for 3. It's been less than a week, and I managed to hurt myself at least three times.
I didn't even care for the fact Edward had picked me up bridal style, my face was on fire. The rust and salt smell, suddenly making me nauseous, as I tried to breathe. That was pointless, as I tried breathing through my nose. Stupid Bella. My fucking nose was broken. Alice, grabbed a cloth as I covered my face and when all ran to the jeep to rush me to the hospital. Luckily when we arrived Carlisle was on break. When he seen us arrive, an took one look at me, he pinched the bridge of his nose. Something obviously Edward picked up. They all followed me, into one of the rooms. Edward settled me on the gurney, while we waited for Carlisle to return. While we were waiting , Emmett decided to lighted up the mood.
"My god Bella, See what I told you about making people crippled, it's karma and it bit you in the ass, or nose rather. That sucker is fucked up!" Emmett boomed earning 4 smacks from Edward, Rose, Alice, and Jasper.
"Ouch what was that for?" Emmet winced rubbing his face.
"How is this fucking funny? She broke her nose Em!" Alice screeched.
"Guys…" I started, but they kept arguing.
"Guys…" I said once more, but they were still ganging up on Emmett."Guys!" I screamed loudly. That had finally gotten their attention, as they all glared at me. Thank god Carlisle showed up at the moment. My head was pounding, and all the hollering was making it worse.
Carlisle stepped timidly towards me gloves on each hand. I gave him a questioning glance until I realized what he was about to do. I cowered back, and grabbed my face, which was stupid since I only made it hurt worse.
"Ow!" I grimaced, again stupid. I needed to stop moving all the muscles in my face."Now Bella?" Carlisle started, but I shook my head.
"Can't you a least knock me out." I hoped.
"I'm afraid not honey. In order to do this I need you to be awake, to see if there is any septum damage." he said.
"Must I?" I cried.
"Yeah if you want your nose to be facing the right for the rest of your life." Carlisle smiled.
"Go on." I closed my eyes as he grabbed my face with his left, and my nose in hand with his right.
"He started feeling my face, to observe the damage. He started feeling the three main focal parts of my nose.
"1,2. Crunch." I cringed as he pressed down. I screamed and couldn't help the profanities that fell from my mouth.
"!" I looked up to all of their shocked faces.
"Well who would have thought our sweet little Bells, had a mouth like a sailor." Rose grinned.
"Shut the fuck up Rose." I grinned. Again stupid move Bella. I winced as Carlisle grabbed my nose once more, to clean up the dried traces of blood. My nose was already swelling. He helped me off the gurney, and led me to the x- ray room. He told the others to wait in the waiting room till I was finished. I had indeed broken my nose. I had to wait 6 days, to slow the swelling down, before they could realign my nose under local anesthetic. I had to go 6 fucking day, looking like a witch, with a limp. Just Perfect.
He led me back to the room, to bandage up my face. It would take 2 months for my nose to heal completely after surgery. Yay me, I would have this freaking bandage on my face, just as long as I had this boot on.
"Bells. I really hope we stop meeting like this." Carlisle smiled.
" I know but this is me, were talking about." I tried to smile. Carlisle had no need to, to give me a prescription, because the one I was suppose to get, could also help for the pain.
I got up, and hugged him, as I tried to walk back to the waiting room. Hospital procedure, I had to ride in a wheelchair, which was embarrassing. My nose probably stood out with the redness of my face. Carlisle pushed me, onto the worried faces, of my friends and Esme.
"Oh Sweetie, I was so worried." Esme said kissing my cheek.
"Its okay Esme, you know me I trip over air." I said trying to lighten the mood.
" I know you just worry me so much." Esme smiled.
Everyone gave me sympathetic smile, but I saw how they grimaced when they looked at my face.
"Mind me saying this, why does Bella look like a witch.?" Emmett said out of the clear. Clearly he had no filter. I don't know why, but Emmett words had hurt. I couldn't help the tears that welled up in my eyes.
"See what you did Em?" Rose screeched smacking him on the back of the head. Just for that no fun time for a month."
"Come on Rosie?" Emmett begged."Nope, I can't believe you just said that, that was so insensitive." Rose said.
Alice strolled over to give me a hug.
"It's okay Bella." Alice cooed."No it's not. I probably do look like a witch. I limp, my nose crooked. I have dark circles under my eyes. Emmett has every right to say so." I huffed.
"Silly Bella." I heard Jasper say.
"How about we go let you change back over at the house." Esme said.
"Sorry, but I would really like to go home. I'm exhausted, and not in one of the best of moods. Sorry Esme." I said.
"Nonsense dear." She hugged me.
"But her shirt!" Alice screeched.
I looked down to see indeed my sweatshirt was covered in blood. Sighing, I threw my sweatshirt over my head, careful of my nose, and threw it on the trash bin.
"Happy now Al? I snapped. I hated being rude to her, but I was tired.
"But it's like 50 degrees outside." Rose said.
"But I don't have a jacket." I said.
"Here take mine." Edward said. I looked up to see that he had also changed. I didn't want him to be covered in my blood.
"But you'll freeze." Edward said.
"I'll be okay." I tried to say but was interrupted my his harsh tone.
"Bella please, take the damn jacket." He said pinching the bridge of his nose.
I felt tears well up in my eyes again, and grabbed the jacket.
"Bella." he started, but I raised my hand to stop him.
"Jasper can you please roll me away please." I started my voice quivering. Rose, and Alice gave him a hard glare, before following me, and Jazzy, out.
He helped me in the back propping my leg sideways of the seat. Rose decided on driving, so Alice sat in the passenger seat. All I wanted was to lay in my comfy bed in my room. Hopeful our rooms were done, because I did not want to be bothered for the next couple of days. They said beauty is in the eye of the beholder. It wasn't in mine. I felt, and probably looked liked crap. Edward, and Emmett didn't help for that matter. I sighed and closed my eyes, waiting for the 4 hour journey to be over, where I could relax, and not think how fucked up my life was.
EPOV
Damn, she could be so stubborn. I didn't mean to come out so harsh to her, but it had been a long night. After carrying Bella up the stairs, to sleep. I went to my own room. I succumbed to my own darkness, but they were filled with nightmares…. Bella, my sweet Bella, smiling in my face, and telling me to fuck off. That she wanted no more to do with me. We couldn't even be friends anymore. She said I betrayed her. What did I do to betray her. Let's just say it was a long night. I then awoke to go downstairs, and eat breakfast with my family.
Not too long after, Bella, slowly strolled down, looking like the Living Dead. She must have been exhausted, dark circles ringed her eyes, and she looked pale. Even paler than me, who was often called a vampire growing up. She said a quick hello, making everyone gasp, and Alice scream. That was one way to wake up everyone in the world.
Everyone, started making snaky remarks about age, and of course the ass I was ,butted in.
"Yeah cause with the way you're looking like right now you could pass for 50." I regretted the words as so as they fell from my mouth. She glared at me. I could still tell she was not happy with me, from the previous day. I wanted to sit down and talk to her, and apologize, but she was obviously was pissed. I overheard her say she was going to retrieve her bags. I thought about grabbing them myself, but changed my mind to let her have her space. Although I watched careful when she made it up to the top of the stairs. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding, and returned outside to help with the bags.
Then, I heard my sweet Bella scream. When all ran back inside to see Bella on the floor, blood pooled around her as she grabbed her face. From what I could see, it appeared broken. I quickly grabbed her bridal style as Alice grabbed a washcloth to cover her face. Not too long after we arrived at the hospital, where Carlisle was on break. He quickly took car of Bella, and I couldn't help but feel this was my fault. I could have helped her, but I was too much of a stubborn ass. I was decided of ways to make it up to her. All I have caused was problems for her. I should have kept my distance. Bella came back wheeled back from the room, her face black and blue. I couldn't help the grimace that spread across my face as I took in her face. She was still beautiful, the only imperfection her little crooked button nose.
Esme had offered to for her to change at the house, but Bella was tired, and just wanted to go home. I couldn't blame her. I could use a good night's rest. Alice commented on her sweatshirt that was covered in dried blood. I had changed when I had went to the bathroom. Bella quickly chucked off her sweatshirt. Leaving herself in her tank top. It was about 50 degrees outside, and I didn't want her to freeze, so I offered her my jacket, She refused but I insisted. She refused again, and I couldn't help but get agitated. Not with her, but with my self.
"Bella please, take the damn jacket." I snapped, my tone harsh. I had never meant to speak to her in that tone, I instantly regretted it. I saw the tears well up in those beautiful brown orbs, and I felt like an ass. She quickly grabbed my jacket, before asking Jasper to roll her away. Rose, and Alice glared at me, even Jasper. Mom just gave me a questioning glance. I didn't want to speak about it. Emmett gave me a pat on the shoulder, as I gave Mom ,a kiss, and hugged dad. I followed Em, to the jeep. The girls had already pulled off. I jumped into the back and laid my head against the window.
"Ed…" Jasper started."I know Jas. I know." I huffed closing my eyes.
I had so many chances with her, and I kept blowing it. When we got home I was going to apologize. I only hoped she forgave me. My chances were running out. I was almost bearing strike 3. I didn't want to strike out, and I definitely didn't want my dream to become a reality.
EMPOV
Poor Bells. I was being a douche. But I least I wasn't as bad as Ed in the back. He was staring out the window in some weird comatose state. I had to make it up to my baby sis. Maybe she would forgive me. I never meant to make her cry, and now it's cost me a month of no fun time with Rosie. Maybe Bells would forgive me. I couldn't stand to see her so down.
APOV
My plan is failing! Edward's dumb ass keep's messing everything up! I know Bella loves him with all of her heart, but Edward is ruining all of his chances. He keeps on hurting her. We all know Bella is a very fragile soul; one of the most selfless people I ever known. Edward better get his life in order, before it's too late.