Chapter 4

Chapter 4
BPOV
Previously...
"We're leaving tomorrow morning."
Did she just say what I think she said My god, we were leaving freaking tomorrow!How could she do this to me? Tomorrow. My head ached from the lack of sleep and the fall. I could feel my eyes well up once more. I thought I cried myself out, but I guess it wasn't the case, when a single tear fell from my eye.
I couldn't even form a coherent thought. I just blurted out softly, but loud enough for her to hear.
"What the hell!", I exclaimed. "You just told me that we're moving Monday, breaking the news to my best friends just a few hours ago and now we're leaving tomorrow!" I screamed . My words coming out harsher than I expected.
"Isabella!" my mother retched. coming back into my room.
"It's just your goal to ruin my life? Isn't it?" I moaned, rubbing my temples trying to let all my frustrations out.
"Now Bella. You know that's not true." my mother said quietly.
"Oh yes it is, ever since Dad died, all you care about is yourself!" I hollered.
"What about my well being?" I asked. I instantly regretted my words, but I was so hurt to even say sorry.
"Bella!" my mom spat, and I flinched back.
"You know it's not true." she growled.
" How do I know. You're never even around do i do with that?" I questioned her.
"Phil's a nice guy, but ever since you started dating him, any decisions made that affected us, were never even spoken to me about. Sometimes I wonder how you could be so selfish. That if you care more for yourself than me." I barely whispered.
It was hard to make my words sound coherent. I was just so drained.
"Bella I don't even want to talk about it anymore, we are leaving at 5 o clock. I suggest you go get your stuff packed up." My mom grudgingly said, as she got up to leave my room.
Five o clock? That only left me with about 4 hours to get packed and take a shower. I wouldn't even get a chance to say goodbye to my friends. Looking over at my alarm clock. I saw it read 1:48. Great. Just Great. I spent so much time wallowing in my own pity that I was just wasting time. They were all probably asleep by now. My goodbye would never come.
Slowly stepping out of my bed, I went into my closet to grab my suitcase where I began to pack all of my possessions. I didn't have many things, but what I did have had fit perfectly into my bags.
Once I gathered all my clothes out of my closet and my toiletries,I came down stairs into the living room. It was now bar, completely transformed full of boxes, where my mother was adding any last minute things inside. I was surprised she could even pack that quickly. There even was a moving truck out front, where Phil was putting boxes in.
"Bella" my mom called.
"Go get your things and me back here in 10 minutes. We're leaving in 20 minutes." she hollered.
"Great no time to call." I moaned. was planing n leaving a message but I didn't want to bother them with a phone call. Pulling out a ratty pen and scrap of paper. I wrote a quick message that I hoped would soon reach them. I was a girl of many words , but at this moment,I just didn't have the time. Running downstairs, I grabbed a piece of tape to adhere it to the door hoping that one of them would see it.
"Bella" my mom yelled from downstairs. Apparently we we were leaving right now.
"Just perfect, another day in hell begins." I mumbled under my breath, too low for my mom and Phil to hear.
I slowly walked over to my mother 's blue Honda and got situated in the front seat. Phil had already drove ahead since he was driving the U-Haul. We were traveling on the road for 6 days, making various stops along the way. This was going to be a long and definitely the longest ride of my life. just hoped my friends would forgive me for leaving so abruptly the way I did. Like Robert Frost said "Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, and I took the one less traveled by." Maybe this was the road that I had to take for now and that just maybe, the other would lead me back to my friends one day.
EPOV
I awoke to the bright light radiating from my bedroom window. Which was rare so I took it as a good omen. I knew what I had to do today. Today, I was going to tell her everything. Hurrying, I grabbed my clothes and ran to my shower, not even caring that the water was scalding hot. I wanted to get there as quick as possible.
I ran downstairs where the rest of my family sat eating breakfast, not really saying anything or looking towards one another. I quickly scarfed down a slice of toast and glass of orange juice. I quickly kissed Mom's cheek before I ran towards the door, nearly toppling Alice in the process.
"Look Edward, I'm sorry about what I said earlier. I didn't mean it. I was angry and…." she trailed off.
"Don't worry about it Al, it was about time, someone told me to get the stick out of my ass" I smirked, glad to see her smiling back at me.
"Good Luck Edward." she smiled and began bouncing in place.
She kissed my cheek as I ran outside,jumping on my bike, anxious to get to Bella.
I sped as fast I could on my bike, not even caring about the intense burning ache in my legs.
I was almost there,. I just had a little bit farther to go. I was this close to revealing my feelings and I couldn't have been more excited. When approached her house. I had to take a double take. For some strange apparent reason it looked eerily vacant. Something was not right. Feeling my heart in my throat.
I hurried and jumped off my bike and went to knock on the door but surprisingly found it unlocked.
Entering, I looked around to see the once familiar walls. now vacant even the floor where a few stray boxes laid. Hoping I was wrong, I ran upstairs into Bella's room but found it in the same condition as downstairs.
They were gone.
No she couldn't have left already? Alice had told me that she wasn't leaving until Monday. Had Bella lied to us?
I didn't even get to say upstairs to the familiar room, where the gang and I would spend our days lounging in Bella's room. Looking around,I noticed all her things were gone, the only things left being her bed frame and mattress, along with a few lamps.
"She's gone." I whispered to the empty house. I had to bite the inside of my jaw to keep myself from screaming out in mortification. Going back downstairs I headed towards the door to see a small scrap of paper attached to the door frame. Grabbing it, I noticed a small note addressed to us in Bella's scrawny handwriting. Reading her words, I felt sick to my stomach and promptly regurgitated my quickly eaten breakfast into the bushes. Wiping my hands across my face, I growled in frustration of the words that would never be said.
She would never know how I felt about her. I could never say what I wanted to say to her ever since I was 7 and she 6. I must have been so sickened that i hadn't even been aware that I was riding my bike until I was in front of my house.
Opening the door, I grudgingly walked in where my family sat lounging on the sofa, watching television. I was even surprised to see that Dad was home. He must have gotten off early.
Quickly taking in the frown upon my face, Alice was the first to speak up. "Edward what's wrong?"
Rolling my eyes, I just shoved the note in her hand and walked towards the steps not even bearing a second glance towards my startled family.
"Edward" my mother called, but I didn't turn around. I didn't feel like speaking. I just wanted to go to my room and be alone for awhile. Locking myself in my room, I headed towards my bed and laid my head against the pillows that lay there. Slowly closing my eyes, I prayed for the nightmare to end , that was becoming more and more of a startling reality.
APOV
We were all lounging, relaxing in the living room. Yesterday had been a rough day on everyone. Losing Bella was losing a part of out family,but we had all agreed that we were going to make these last three days the best before she left.
I was wondering when Edward was going to had been really anxious the night before and I was desperate to know how his conversation went with Bella. I always knew that they liked each other, but the two of them were too stubborn to admit it to one another.
I was pulled out of my thoughts, when a broken down Edward came through the door looking sullen. He looked pale...well paler than usual. He held his head hung and was desperately trying his hardest not to look any of us in the eye.
Thinking the worst. That thought being that she turned him down. I called out to him, hoping for some type of answer.
"Edward what's wrong?"
He said nothing, he just shoved a piece of paper in my hands and headed for the stairs.
"Edward.." Mom called, but he still didn't turn around.
The rest of my family turned around to look at me when I glanced down at the scrap of paper that I now realized was a note.
For the words I just couldn't say in person... I'm sorry.
I hope to see you all soon again and I hope that you'll never forget me, as I you.
I love you guys so much.
Bella
I couldn't hold the sob that erupted from my mouth, as I handed the note over to Jasper who read it out loud.
She was really gone. I never got the chance to even say goodbye. This was unlike her. Wouldn't she have told us she was leaving earlier than expected? Or had she lied to us completely in general. So many questions left unanswered.
No wonder Edward looked so broken. Bella would never know how he felt about her. Rose and I wouldn't have our best friend, Emmett and Jasper their sister. Even mom and dad lost a daughter. People always said that things happened for a reason, but this- this situation in this point and time, had a reason that I hoped one day to understand.